...

So...





I'm sitting in my living room.


Alone.


Listening to Michael Bublé. [:





I'm quite lonely.


But I sought solitude.


Feeling that I needed it for a while.


And it was good.


Really good for the first week and a half.


But now...


I'm so very alone.





Hope the summation of this year looks up.


I hope that I make it to the Bay.


To see my best friend


Danielle Elaine Benjamin


And take a break from life.


That's better than my current one.





And to my good friend Soloman.


I'm sorry that I'm being a crappy friend.


You don't know it.


But I'm holding back.


Cause like always...


I'm worried about others and not myself.


Everyone else comes before me.


Everyone else can be happy.


But not I.


I'm sorry if it seems that I'm just taking.


Emotionally, that is.


I'm hesistant to let you give me anything that is...


Concrete evidence of you giving me all this thought


and attention...


And me giving little to no time of day.


I'm sorry.


I wish I didn't care.


I wish I wasn't scared.


But most of all


I wish I wasn't here...


Rather a figment of everyone's imagination.





I didn't get to go to Vegas.


To visite mis grand-parents


Parce que...


Parce que...


Je ne se pas.





I wanna sleep...


My life away.





Happy Kwanzaa

Umoja - "Unity"

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